Monday, December 30, 2013

2013 Year End Review

A narrative of the year gone by.

It's the 30th of December 2 more days and 2014 comes through: I wonder what it holds for me.
2013 has been too good to me, I've been through too much I do not even know where to begin. I suppose we can start on January I've proven to be resilient after the extreme pressure that I've been through. I've proven how much of a caffeine addict I can be when I want to and hoe much of a procrastinator I really am. Thesis, which I've manage to pull through January of 2013 has really brought out the best and worst of me. January  also marked my chain smoking capabilities (something I'm not really proud of).

Come February, thesis pressure still isn't over add the comprehensive exam we have to take. February is when I've discovered my love for painting. I realized how I can express myself through that module--thanks to my digital painting elective class.

March has been glorious! It's bitter-sweet but sweet for the most part. I remember being emotional the whole month of March.  It's when I left my alma matter, my home for nine loong years, the month I became an ex-convent school girl. I still miss St. Scho. I wish so much that, that isn't the last time I am coming to school in this lifetime. I wish to study again, to learn more.

April-July was hell. I've been worried sick about not getting any jobs when my classmates have done so already.

August I got hired and started my training and gained plenty new friends

October felt something I last had (felt) during my high school days

November- gave up on the feeling

December is a bliss

hahahah nothing much significant transpired ever since I started working but what I'm truly thankful for for this year is that I don't cry myself to sleep anymore like I have for the past 3 years :) THANK YOU LORD!


I don't get it. You say you're gonna be there for me but you never reply to my texts. You say you care but I only here from you when you need something from me. And what sucks the most is that I love you so much that I can bear it all.

Friday, December 27, 2013

blank

if there's two things I'm really good at the first one is being on the other side of unrequited love. I seem to have mastered having feelings I cannot contain on my head and on my heart but never having the ecstatic opportunity to be recognized nor returned. It's getting quite amusing actually, the way how the situation always seem to victimize me. It would actually be nice to be reciprocated for once.


On the side note, last  Friday he hugged me, half(y) and that hug made me feel like I am actually on the right track(of moving on). It sucks so much and it hurts but still I'm glad for I know I am saving myself from a deeper agony. More and more I wish me luck as it changes from week to week. I might be ok today and nil tomorrow and it's getting harder but I'm gonna keep trying (to move on).

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

carrie diaries season 2 episode 5

In the diner Carrie sees Sebastian looking down at his cup of joe

Carrie: Are you ok?
Sebastian: yeah I'm fine!
Carrie: I know you, you're not ok

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I want that for me :(

Sunday, December 8, 2013

song of the whatever duration

I seriously think that this song is written for me :))