you guys

Happy New Year!!

i look gaunt, almost haunted (missing from this picture are my pimples cured by the filter on this photo)

I cant see me

Reso#3

drink milk tea once a week only if possible once every two weeks. this will help reduce sugar intake and help reduce spending.

Reso#2

quit habitual smoking. after thesis I promise thyself and my occasional nanay who scolded me awhile ago, though I've thought of that resolution even before she scolded me. promise haha honest un.

Reso#1

I've used you as my security blanket for months and months now and I won't let  me abuse you ever again this 2013. This I promise, though you don't know that it's you, I'm sure that you'll be able to read this. I promise never again. 

Christmas memories...

Earlier as my dad and I were walking home from Misa de Gallo, he told me a tale of how things were back then for him.

Christmas Season

this really is just some random blabber over something that's related to Christmas, don't expect coherency I am tired. :p like that's an excuse but hey it's my whining blog right?

nostalgic

I posted this on my tumblr many months ago, nakakalungkot lang how things turned out for them

Skins season 4 Freddie and Effy

On their final dear moment together Effy wakes up on the hospital with Freddie 

Effy: I didn’t mean what I told you, I was so stupid…

Freddie: It’s alright were together we’ll be together

Effy: You deserve better

Freddie: It’s alright go to sleep

Effy: I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you

i miss you

woke up from a very bad dream again I wish none of you followers would go through my ordeal. I hate that my dream-catcher above my head just wont work or maybe I just need a bigger one.

color

I was just asked what my favorite color is and immediately I answered: RED! reason? I have no fcuking idea why HAHAHAHA

convers

after not seeing her for days

run

no matter how many times I told myself not to get my hopes up I always find my way slammed on the ground with bittering disappointments about runs that never happened. I am just upset at how it always

nothing beats convers like this!

siya: bukas o mamaya dapat meron na ok???
ako: meron ng ano?
siya: gana na tayo ( gumawa ng thesis ang tinutukoy niya)
ako: Hnd. Matutulog na ako. Inaantok ako eh
siya: sampalin kita
ako: hahaha hindi kasi ako nagbibiro nakakatamad gravee
siya: hindi din ako nagbibiro sasampalin kita =)))))))

sweet nothings

I remember she made me cry that day she revealed things that confirmed my speculations. She knew I was sad and she kept silent. She gave me a blueberry and classic danish from French Baker and it made me smile. 

gusto mo bang malungkot?

pwes pakinggan mo 'to

All my life

I've never known where you've been

There were holes in you

The kind that I could not mend

Inexorable facts connect our consciousness with this body that we know; and that not merely as a whole, but the parts of it are connected severally with parts of our brain-action.

me jejemony eow

hahaha I was saving up all my past blog post from my Multipy account (last chance today) and I encountered this and decided to answer it again for comparison HAHAHA let's see how much I've changed

motherly thoughts

When Jada Pinkett-Smith was asked why she let her daughter Willow shave her head, this is what she said: 
"This subject is old but I have never answered it in its entirety. And even with this post it will remain incomplete. 
The question why I would LET Willow cut her hair. First the LET must be challenged. This is a world where women, girls are constantly reminded that they don't belong to themselves; that their bodies are not their own, nor their power, or self determination. I made a promise to endow my little girl with the power to always know that her body, spirit, and her mind are HER domain. 
Willow cut her hair because her beauty, her value, her worth is not measured by the length of her hair. It's also a statement that claims that even little girls have the RIGHT to own themselves and should not be a slave to even their mother's deepest insecurities, hopes, and desires. Even little girls should not be a slave to the preconceived ideas of what a culture believes a little girl should be. More to come. Another day."

Day 5: morning sky & something green

morning sky

taken by moi at Baguio.November 2012

something green 

Pesto pasta with poop on top aka meat balls

disclaimer: both photographs are my own so don't you dare grab 'em or I kill you!

F1 2012 SEASON REVIEW

kakaibang feeling while watching this, hindi ko madescribe para akong kinikilabutan na ewan hindi ko maipaliwanag yung feeling I guess it's somewhat very close to passion and love or both or hindi ko maipaliwanag ahaha I LOVE F1. saka galing din ng gumawa or nagcompile nitong vid :D

recovery

I seriously wonder who wrote this:

TV SERIES

been addicted to this tv series about a Korean girl from the Jeoson era who dreams of providing for her family after her father died and the story unfolds... or maybe I'll tell you about it some other time when I'm not hella sleepy because it's not 1 am. I just wanted to show you some photos that's why I created this post. As in any tv series that got me hooked, that bubbly little jolog fan girl in me can't help but create snippets from the clips and turn in into a tiny winy story board ish photos that seems to be the trend nowadays and with a little help from my buddy PS here you go. something that makes me SMILE. better than shedding tears before sleep right?

"did you say it'll end once we leave this place? there's no such thing as the end because I'll just start it over again and again"-- Lee Sun Jun

Favorite Quotations

What I Am Is What I Am

"I have no doubt that I often speak of things which are better treated by the masters of the craft, and with more truth. This is simply a trial of my natural faculties, and not of my acquired ones. If anyone catches me in ignorance, he will score no triumph over me, since I can hardly be answerable to another for my reasonings, when I am not answerable for them to myself, and am never satisfied with them....These are my fancies, in which I make no attempt to convey information about things, only about myself. I may have some objective knowledge one day, or may perhaps have had it in the past when I happened to light on passages that explained things. But I have forgotten it all; for though I am a man of some reading, I am one who retains nothing."

-Montaigne

when the ship have sailed only a fool would go after it but sometimes its better to be a fool than to regret everything in the end because you never even tried -Jack Sparrow,

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.” -Dr. Seuss

always put you're heart in everything you do, follow your heart-my dad :)

Great things are done by a series of small things brought together.
-Vincent Van Gogh

movie lines

"once cannot help what one feels. No one can be blamed for it.... For longing about someone you can't have, you get hurt and hurt another. Even so, because you can't forget that person you go through hell everyday."
--Geol Oh

DIALOGUE

KYS: I... will remember this moment for a very long time. In the far off future after we leave Sungkyunkwan, even though we may no longer be together any longer... Still, I shall remember.the concerns we had, the fears we felt, and our happy moments. and who was always together... all our roommates! then, I think that perhaps I can live as just a little better person. So will you remember?
One day, when you have to make a difficult decision like today, just once... that there was someone who trusted Lee Sun Joon more than himself.

LSJ: I dont want to. whenever it may be, stay by my side like now.watch me with your own two eyes whether I'm going the right road until the end.that way, I'll be able to remember today while looking at you.thats why kim yoon shik you have to continue to be by my side like this

melodies & words

People ask how it feels to live the kind of life others dream about

I tell them everybody gotta face their highs and their lows

And in my life there's a love I put aside, cause I was busy loving something else

So for every little thing you hold on to, you've got to let something else go

i'M IN LOVE

questions

I currently am trying to get a hold of the copy of the docu "Give Up Tomorrow" I'm very curios as to how the other side presents its' stand on the case. My curiosity got piqued when i saw the issue on the news about an apparent 'mistake' on conviction for the rape and murder of two sisters in Cebu. It happened way back... before I even had as to a clue to the world so yeah can't wait for my download to be over with so I could watch this and give my view on it.

Day 4: something Pink & Leaves

Day 3: happyness & woman

masarap pero mahirap

went to my old workplace where I interned during the summer as part of my school requirement and came across this sign posted beside the elevator for all the world (or at least the people in those bldg to see)  I happened to be in such a hurry to finish this as me and my bestfriend were almost the only ones left in the floor or our bldg that day not to mention the part where it's our last day of work and we've already extended extra hours to finish everything before we were even asked to do this job. Looking back now I'm glad I did extend my time and effort to finish this Travel People logo though it was halfheartedly done. The evidence shows upon how the land formation on the logo was like a jagged piece of glass placed there just to make it look like a continent, as my other friend mentioned earlier "halatang minadali lang" and I just cant help but laugh at how it ended up to be. all in all it was a good experience which created good and bad memories as well as lessons learned :D

things I learned (today)

1. it's better to shoot the wacky pic first in a group photos hoot
    reason: just to break the ice, loose people up, lose the uncomfy feeling people get in front of the   cam

2. you can manipulate the ac controls to make it function like an electric fan. no need to manually produce air for your bestfriends' skirt to appear like it's being swept by the wind.

3. helping other people (in posing etc) today made me really happy di alintana ang pagod :D

4. my mom was right: "huwag kang magexpect anak,masakit yun."
        waiting for a thank you is like waiting for a rain in a drought season. anticipation over appreciation from others should be nonexistent in my vocab, I shall now do my best-est to try and do things for others and not expect anything. yes. not even a message of thanks :O and yes...you know that's always what I only want.

water

never thought i'd be so much upset because of it. will never forget how I felt today.

letting go

I once had this very enriching experience from on of my jeepney rides to school were a small kid, about the age of 5, and his mom were talking about how school went for him yesterday... as the conversation lead on they arrived at the topic about the frightened kid having to say good bye to his Mama again for the morning. the very sad and worried boy eagerly let his Mama know how much he'll miss her so he really doesn't want her to leave him there his mother sensitively replied about how he'll hurt his teachers feelings by not letting his mum go and how he'll hurt his mum's feelings if he doesn't allow himself to be left alone in the classroom. the story concludes with the mom telling her son how much she loves her and that not to be scared to be left with teacher because she'll come fetch him from school afterwards anyway. the encounter was able to demonstrate to me how pure a young childs' love is, the sincerity and sensitivity that I hope he'll carry around even after ever after. joke. after he'd grown up to be a man. :D

hatred.

kapag naalala ko kung paano mo ako pinagbintangan, yang accusing tone mo naiinis ako. kapag nakikita ko yang mukha mo o pangalan mo sa feeds ko kumukulo talaga ang dugo ko and what's even worse I still am trying to protect you from the world to see who you really are. pero malas mo kasi hindi ka magaling magtago ng kung ano ka talaga. kaya siguro wala kang masyadong kaibigan hindi katulad ko. 

Lady Gaga-- Brown eyes

Where everything was everything but everything is over

Everything could be everything if only we were older

I guess it's just a silly song about you

And how I lost you and your brown eyes, brown eyes

Day 2: Smile and Childhood

duck na ballerina

kung anong tinaeng smile yan hindi ko alam talaga

Merry Christmas nails

this is my Christmas edition nail art, feel free to copy the design, or simply be inspired by it.
I used magic tape for borders as well as Sally Hansen 160 Cherry Red as well as Orly French Manicure Pink Nude and the two sparkly ones are also from Orly but I cannot remember the names.

Kesha--Die Young

I hear your heart beat to the beat of the drums

Oh what a shame that you came here with someone

So while you're here in my arms

Let's make the most of the night like we're gonna die young

TG

"Failures aren’t all that bad. They actually teach us to become better people, and sometimes, they even save you from becoming someone that you shouldn’t be. :)"

got it here 

current fave

The Naked and Famous- Girls like You

How would you cope it the world decided to make you suffer for all that you were?

How could you dance if no-one was watching

And you couldn't even care if they were?

What would you do if you couldn't even feel?

F1 is full of drama, comedy and action

"Yes Leave Me Alone I know what I'm doing" 
"Yes I know I'm the one doing all the work here"

-- Kimi Raikonnen 2012 Abu Dhabi GP

cards smokes and coffee

the last time I smoke was when I went out and bid my friend Ming good bye as well as shake of the stress of finals and synthesis as a ritual me and my classmates does every semester. haven't smoked since then and already it feels like eternity. right now I really really want a stick like I did yesterday and the day before that but I'm fighting all my might to go grab myself a box not because my friends told me not to, not because I'm concerned about my lungs but because I didn't want to be the person I vowed I never would be. I didn't wanna break the promise I bade myself. also I miss gambling gaaah use to do this every weekend some spectacularly stupid habit that I've managed to acquire thanks to my professor who never attends our classes. and Lastly I miss hanging out, drinking coffee with smokes and playing pusoy dos with my best friends :( I miss hanging out :( that is all 

please?

what i really really want right now? is a hug a tight, big bear hug. I cannot think of anything more comforting :((

Day 1: fave food and a portrait of me self

DOUGHNUTS is love

another very happy portrait

Kowloon House Siopao my gaaahd

no matter how bad this always looks on photos I will always love it! looks can be deceiving you know

the pretiest I've been on a photograph for a while now with the help of concealer + foundation of course

huh?

I don't know how I almost forgot his birthday. hahaha that all Happy Birthday YOU!

SLR

Here's the thing my dad's 30 year old camera cannot vbe fcuking found anywhere well not anwwhere since I havent searched the whole house yet but it's not in the place where it most likely should be. I'm going bananas like seriously I cannot sleep nor nap peacefully because I haven't found it yet. The sentimental value of the camera is way too deep that a brand new one can't even amount to half its' value to us. I was the last person who played with it so most probably it's with me. the thing is my last recollection of the camera was way back in September 2010 where I brought it to our school to exhibit is as an "old gadget" I still lost to some family computer that's 40 years old or something. the dilemma now is I cannot recall if I've left it there (which is highly unlikely however I cannot find it here at home so it's still a possible reason) i could vividly recall the bag I used back then and even found it abandoned here however the camera isn't there and besides when I loaned the camera for the exhibit the bag was with me so if I did left the camera with the organizers shouldn't the bag be here?
the very very frantic Capricorn part of me is entertaining thoughts about me possibly have left it on the jeepney (which sort of never happened before though not impossible) I JUST WANT TO FIND IT

blabber bored

been listening to her since MTV outed her as their break through artist of the month but then I had to focus more on my indie rock group so she was set aside for some time but I don't know how she crept up to the top of my playlist again and been hooked on her for a week now. this song is my favorite as of current.

puto

now that I've got the means I'll embarked on the journey of doing the Photo Challenge! yey! though I'm very sure that it sure is difficult to keep up with so Good Luck sa akin!

this is what the search engine spewed out several times when I logged the keyword November Photo Challenge on the search box:

I however find this more interesting and much more challenging so ... haha I don't know which one I'll concentrate on I guess you'll have to come back to this blog

and lovin' this right now 

it's 4pm and I'm still lying in my bed now this is the life!! this is the rest I've been craving for for weeks and weeks now however this day isn't as nice as I'm constantly being bothered by this stubborn headache that just wont leave me at peace *sigh* 

whatever I'll go back to my series

i love them :))

c'est la vie

it's annoying and frustrating and confusing to still get an A- irregardless if I had one absent or not. It's annoying how you did put a lot of effort, financial what nots, time, sleep and thought just like your groupmates did and not get the same grade. When your dysmenorrhea gets the best of you and you decide to go absent for a class & you get a -10 in your grade but hey whoever said the world is fair? I just have to suck it up and never trust that Prof again. what hurts the most is the lack of sympathy and the presence of sarcasm in the air when you tried to sought comfort from...  and just to be clear it's not the grade that I'm upset about it's the system oh well c'est la vie  :)

avatar

was asking myself why I was so into this guy 

then this gave me the answer

tumblroos

the saddest thing I came across on tumblr to date. gahd how miserable that person must be :(

to all my friends

I was slowly reading through Tumblr when I came across this quote after reading the question mark I literally asked myself aloud "who's him" and then I read the explanation underneath then I remembered how many years I also came across this but had an entirely different reaction to the question: I remember back then I had an image, name in mind already but I guess all that has changed now. 

this is a nice song :)

inspiring

WHEN YOU'VE HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN, YOU'VE FALLEN DOWN AND FALLEN APART BE POSITIVE BECAUSE THERE'S NOWHERE TO GO BUT UP FROM THERE JUST TRY.

Try -- P!nk

after MIDTERMS

After midterms which is next week I promise with all my heart to continue watching the Borgias again :/ I solemnly promise to finish season 1 & 2 during the short breather that the school is giving us before Synthesis enkk ;/  After then I'll give you the reviews.

 Lucrezia Borgia

 babe why you so hot??

 babe Cardinal Borgia

Giulia Farnese

And after which of course I promise to finish watching GoT :D eheheh

P.S.

ang lang ng mukha kong ilagay sa post na 'to na after midterms eh finals na nga pala ENKKK!

first love never dies

nothing, no one can give me satisfaction as much as this sport does!

watch it and maybe you'll understand me a bit.

nice

goal: size 12 and I strongly believe that i can do it!

grad pic is up soon and while I'm too busy looking out for the perfect outfit my mom suddenly came up with the idea of simply going to the couturier because she believes that nothing out there fits me. sucks the helly hell hole. I however sort of likes the idea it it'll be cheaper for us i've been deciding whether i'll have this

  done for me or find that floral dress that I'm looking out for. :((

also this is another one of my pegs 

what do you guys think??