JOB HUNT 2013

Tomorrow I will be off to sign a Job Order though I am still not aware of how things would turn out there. I am scared to death to be honest, a bit annoyed because I feel like I am taking this job for the sake of having it and not because I like the job whatsoever I mean you are reading about a girl who never ever answers the home phone calls. Another reason I'm lamenting about is my major being put into waste because of this job.
I just wish that everything will go smoothly for me. It's just that finding a job is too damn hard at the moment not to mention the self pity and restrictions being jobless prescribes so I have to take whatever is laid on the table.

ihop

so I went to IHOP in BGC with my bestfriend. We were coming from a job interview at McKinley and decided to relieve the dragons in our tummies. We both ordered an omelette a Ham and Cheese for me and a Bacon cheesy thingy for her both came with buttermilk pancakes of course. The experience is generally below my expectation. We were on the waiting list so we had to wait there for a few minutes. Service was not satisfying bordering horrible considering the fee they charge for that and it wasn't even too packed by time we were seated. We had to repeatedly ask for water and when it came we had to share a glass. imagine that! the food was surprisingly underwhelming as well. the pancakes tastes like flour (though the syrup assortment was nice) and the omelette was nothing special it was as it says an omelette, nothing I couldn't do at home. so yeah that's it. see and try for yourself. I hope so much that you get a better experience than I did.  

song of the week

Somebody is gonna miss you
Farewell
Somebody is gonna wish that you were here
That somebody is me

forgotten

may mga kaibigan talaga siguro na makakalimot na pagkatapos ng graduation. yung tipong dati alam mo kapag nasa tricyle/jeep na siya papasok, kung gising na siya o kaya patulog na kasi sobrang insync kayo pero ngayon kahit schedule niya hindi mo na alam. presensya niya hindi mo na dama kahit pa nakakausap mo siya. ang hirap pala ng pagbabago (transition) na ito kahit pa nuon pa man bago magsimula ang graduation ay naisip ko na 'to, pinangambahan kong mangyari at nangyari nga. nakakalungkot isipin na kahit saglit na matinong usap paminsan minsan hindi na nangyayari. nakakalungkot na nakikita mong online siya, may oras mag like ng ganito o may oras makipagdate sa iba pero wala na sayo. kahit pa humiling ka na itxt/tawagan ka niya o makipagkita siya sayo ngunit wala pa din. siguro yung mga nakikita ko na iyon says a lot about how much I am not valued I figured I should do the same. treat them the way they are to me.  Pero ang hirap hirap tanggapin na wala na nga sa systema mo yung tao kung mahal mo siya (not romantic) at medyo kumakapit ka pa sa nakaraan. siguro it's a healing process ganun talaga. parang break up ba. move on move on din. 

bum bum bum

it's been a while since I've been here that getting my USERNAME  and password even took a few tries to get.

I've been leisurely wasting away with my new found "freedom" if we can call it that where I am now free from the subjective demands of my academic boundaries. Living a life of a bum with a twist. for the past few months after my college graduation I've been staying here in my parents' place. I've been taking care of my nephew because a replacement yaya hasn't come around yet since the old one went  AOL many months ago. It's fucking HARD labor and WITHOUT PAY as it was already assumed by them that I'm doing this out of goodwill so yeaah. this experience have really made me think twice about having a child of my own. it's fucking hard that I don't ever want to go through this process again. It had even hindered me to get to places I would hopefully wanted to go to, get a good start doing some walk in application without being too conscious of the time. I cannot entirely say that  I am not enjoying this even for a tiny bit I mean my nephew is adorable and all but it's I guess too much to take in for someone who is as unemotionally stable as I.

In a few days I hope to get a job offer that I've been craving for for months now. I do not know how to feel about it as I was only starting to appreciate being free of commitments, though I have my moments when I see my batch mates indulging on stuffs that I cant yet afford because I'm still jobless. I used to pray to God to "please give me a job" but lately I've altered my prayer to "please give me what I deserve, what you have planned for me" I believe that all forces in the universe would coincide and present me with what my heart desires I just hope it happens soon rather than later. same goes with the yaya that I'm been praying to come our way. In Gods time I suppose. that's all./