10742 miles apart..!!

have you ever experience being left behind? specially by someone so dear? yeah i have.


its not a good feeling.. its actually a very bad feeling.


its harder if that person leaves without reason and/or explanation at all. its very hard to forget and move on.





its like falling into a deep deep well without even realizing how deep it is not knowing when your gonna stop falling. very sad and alone.


the feeling is not fantasy its more like reality sucking eating every piece of you.





but what im feeling ryt now is somehwhat different.





do you still have the memory of yours when you were young, wherein you stop playing this ceratin toy because you tell your self your to old enough for that eventually forgetting about it?





i fear that one day my best friend jeckah would forget me too the same way i forgot that one special toy. we are 10,742 miles part i realy dont expect things to be the same from now on. the closeness might be decreased. the stories shared together would narrow down and of course the time spent together would be impossible from now on. i fear that someday we would lose it all..


i understand that a toy and a friend is very different. most likely when you two care about each other. but in reality things would never ever be the same. and thats very very sad. i hate it.


i really hate the feeling im feeling ryt now.


i know her life would be better there. thats why im happy for her.





i would truly miss her dearly.

why are people scared of changes..

well tonight the whole class got unto this really huge fight mainly because of us.. Bheah, Lee ,Encar,Charmaigne, vs Ariane. I think from the very start they have it all wrong. The rephrasing of the messages how they get it is very different from what it actually mean that makes them very furious. i guess Ariane had her mistakes as well but what I think is they are taking things too far!to the point na lumabs na yung jacket tang ina its too much for me ryt now.. will things really change until end? would the seven be totally six?! it makes me sick

i dont know..

it was three years since i switch school and its a bit sad a lot has change! in fact everything change my maner of speaking the way i speak the way i interact i cant say it changed for the bad but i miss living a free life like the one i had before where in i dont need to live to any expectation no need to force myself to do what i dont want to.