boo

this is what I hate. It's when u get inside my head and you stay there. And in my mind it was perfect but the reality stresses otherwise.

nasisi pa ang buwan

in the night and every other
she see's a girl in the mirror


it was the moon smiling bright
with flowing tears on it's eyes
peek closely and realize
that those eyes tell you no lies

at night she not alone:
misery haunts her soul
she has a dark secret;
but no one else knows

from earth the moon's face is bright
but from up high,
you see the dark side
sadness
hidden from view of plain sight

she has the sun to run from
and the earth to circle around
together--apart forever

c'est très meurtrier

“Half the night I waste in sighs,

Half in dreams I sorrow after

The delight of early skies;

In a wakeful dose I sorrow

For the hand, the lips, the eyes,

For the meeting of the morrow,

The delight of happy laughter,

The delight of low replies.”

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I've got to be honest

I think you know

We're covered in lies and that's OK

There's somewhere beyond this I know

But I hope I can find the words to say 

Never again no

No never again 

[Chorus]

'Cause you're a god

And I am not

And I just thought

That you would know

You're a god

And I am not

And I just thought

I'd let you go

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Ang hirap maging babae
Kung torpe iyong lalaki
Kahit may gusto ka... di mo masabi
Hinde ako iyong tipong nagbibigay motibo
Conservative ako kaya di maaari
At kahit mahal kita... Wala ako magagawa
Tanggap ko 'to aking sinta, pangrap lang kita

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c'est très meurtrier



me now. get it?

something old

whenever I coast along Taft Avenue when coming from Buendia just before the Vito Cruz LRT station I see house after house with it's magnificent old architectural charm. and I feel a bit sad whenever I see them in their current state. I feel sad for the loss of grandeur those structures must have had once upon a time. I feel sad that wonderful designs like those are being abandoned and be rarely seen today. Though I understand that architecture in it's nature has to really evolve, I understand that the lifestyle now has changed, the needs of people change and architecture has to conform to those modern demands. But what I'm trying to say is, I wish that those that are left standing now would be preserved or even restored to it's former beauty. I just wish that something could be done about that.

A week ago I did ask someone who seems very passionate about travelling; what he likes most about going to places. He said it's getting to experience the culture, meet new people... He also mentioned how much he likes visiting old churches, in lieu of this topic, I am happy about how that's one of the coolest thing that my country has: old standing churches dating back 50 to even hundreds and hundreds of years. As much as my
religious reasons why I enter church I also love visiting it because of it's wonderful architecture (old ones in particular) truly nothing can compare to structures that really took time to be built. I've only visited a few but someday I wish to really go on a pilgrimage and see as many as I can.


on the side note I super kaduper badly wish to travel like he does. someday... when I have the moolah or I will save up for it and go go go!

I remember a conversation I had with a friend last week about Quiapo how I feel sad(ish) when I visit the area. With the Cinemas and all the shopping center losing it's former glory. Why did that happen? Why was that place not able to maintain the prestige that it once had? What could be the underlying issue? Is it because Quiapo was hesitant for change thus it was left behind?

another side note: I wish I had someone to talk with about issues or thoughts like this. I wish to find that person whom I could converse with and not be tagged as weird. haha
I do like those old structures very much. It gives me a real peek into the past. That's probably one of the reasons why it's still there standing and in that state too because it gives people like me an example, a symbol of the past.

and I foolishly found myself waiting... and I can't get enough of that smile. FUCK.