"true love is never selfish..." it's wrong to pursue for personal gain to lose respect and let your desire prevail over reason. 

my boy :)

made me kilig kilig earlier <3

Q: Fernando, what does this do to a Ferrari team? So many questions asked about the performance of the car in Australia, does this give fresh motivation and can we see it again in the near future?

FA: I think it changes nothing, to be honest. We are in a position that we don’t want, to be fighting to go into Q3 and then fighting to score some points. We want to fight for pole positions, for victories, so definitely in the first two races of the Championship that we find ourselves off the pace. As I said before, the goal was not to lose many points with the leaders. I think we did a job in the trackside, as I said, and we didn’t lose maybe any point to the leaders, so this is the positive news about these first two races but coming to China, Bahrain, Barcelona, there is a lot of stuff coming to improve the car and this is the real job we have to do. I know the team is putting in a lot of effort. We trust each other a lot in the team, we are very united at the moment and this win will make us very happy today and maybe the next two days in the factory but it doesn’t change our determination to improve the car and to keep winning.

regret.

alam mo yung andun ka na tapos nakalimutan mo pa sabihin yung dapat mong sabihin. andun ka na sa moment na un na may chance kayong magusap ng kayong dalawa lang tapos nakalimutan mo pang sabihin sa kanya para maliwanag nalang lahat. ang saklap :/ trahedyang matatawag kasi ngayon dadalhin mo pa sa loob mo, iisipin mo pa at pipilitin mo pa ng buong pagiimbot na hindi isipin at hindi bigyang halaga pero sa totoo kinakain talaga ng bagay na yun ang buong isip mo.

lead her to me and lead me to her. please Lord. as in PLEASE because I Need This is an understatement.

this made me so fvcking happy 

LET'S SAVE THE SHARKS!!!

son of a gun! 

taken out of the equation.

& poke my face.

:((((

matindi tinding pagluluksa ito. 

jujujuju

CHANGE IS INEVITABLE.

GENUINE EFFORTS CAN NEVER BE INSUFFICIENT.

happiness

a midst the chaos and more chaos of the exam week, projects, THESIS exams + countless deadlines
I found comfort in enjoying the simple things in life like my friendship with my friends and their families.
For so long I had this dream of meeting my friends mom but due to certain complexities it never actually materialize until last week. Alas fulfillment! It was a nice experience all in all, was able to play with her baby sister and get to know her mom. SAYA!

813

the numbers never lie....

these lines...

Don't my lies are made up?

I'm no different and I've 

found all the questions cause I'm bored with the answers

I'm bored with the answers

Sure I missed a lot

And I'm no better off but

 to sit behind a line of thing's I've no will for

I've gotta keep moving 

I've still gotta move gotta...

depression

envelopes me.

yung gusto mo ng umiyak pero hindi pwede kasi kailangan tough girl ka. When you feel like you've done everything reached out and tried to be normal, tried to be indifferent tried all sort of remedies that you know of yet things remain the same. cold.

glory

"But I was blessed with bad eyes. There's a lot that I missed but I don't mind, I'm not that old. I'll find out what broke me soon enough."

ghost towns

"and I still dream of you but everyone knows if you can, let it go." 

jealous much?

and here I am wondering as fvck why the hell am I fvcking possessive as fvck?


i wonder if it's common with january born?

this is it

i am quite certain now...

it's coming




not winter





but

the beginning of the end

i finally found something to smile about

NOTHING BEATS ME + MY BED + COLD WEATHER + LITTLE SUNSHINE= PERFECT LOVE AFFAIR!!!

its too cold outside for angels to fly...

and angels to die

my day today

1. Lit (my first class)--had a conver with Michelle she's always so cute

2. Dizon class cancelled opted to work. boss not around. punyeta. punyeta talaga time was wasted.

3. had 40 pesos left on me decided to go to Kirstens' place at naguilty ako BIGTIME kasi yung tatay ko nakiusap sa akin na umuwi ako ng tanghali pero punyeta hindi ko sinunod at nalaman ko na SIYA LANG MAGISA DUN BUONG ARAW. PUNYETA again.

4. went to SM Makati with Ten to pick up clothes from Forever21 + DECIDED TO CHANGE THE ENTIRE INTERFACE OF MY PROJECT FOR DIZON!!!!! Thanks to tenten :/ :/

5. waited for my friends to get over to tens place + ate burger

6. had some smokes and tails with cocks with the 5 people who knows me the most and whom I consider the BESTEST of the best who I also love loads.

7. cooked adobo for juntis girl who has loads of pains in her body= many complaints

8. had a heart-to-heart + updated her with my life. alas! I know feel supported and a bit secure with my actions

9. made paalam to mommy that I'll be going to EK + had kwento kwentuhan with her

10. finally realized what I was being sad about the whole day I CAN'T FVCKING BELIEVE THAT I FORGOT its friday and she forgot to meet up with me. Again. 

a new beggining

tomorrow's the official start of the Formula 1 2012 season and I'm telling you I cannot cannot fucking wait for it to take me to a new thrilling adventure especially with the return of Kimi Raikonnen my golly! If you dont know who he is then shame on you. I'll post a picture of the Sleeping King of Spa just for those who only him by face.

KAYA

got really curious so I googled the meaning of the name "kaya" here's what I dug up

Kaya meaning and name origin

Kaya \ka-ya\ as a girl's name is pronounced KAH-yah. It is of Japanese, Zulu, Turkish, Hopiand Hindi origin, and the meaning of Kaya is "restful place, yew tree, forgiveness; home; stone;willow, wise child; the one with the beautiful body, profile"

Game of Shit

I always find myself the antagonist in the game I wonder why? Like I'm always the one to blame for all evil

:(

right now I'm going berserk over myself losing my watch I CANT FIND IT!!! At this point of my life right now I really cannot afford to lose any other else...

ate

nuon

ate rachelle: hannah hindi ka na baby ha ate ka na nitoh (points to her tummy)
kuya jeck: oo nga hannah
ate: aalagaan mo 'to ah kagaya ng pagaalaga namin sayo
rihanna: ayoko!
kuya jec: bakit? ayaw mo dalhin sa "panta" {Zapanta}
rihanna: ayaw!


yesterday


me (to rihanna): ang cute cute naman ng baby na yan ang ganda ganda
rihanna (with matching emphaqsis with the hand): hindi na ako baby! ate na ako ni baby!
*imagine my shock*
dumating si ate...
rihanna: ate rachelle, tulog si baby? (sabay hawak sa tummy) :D

forever

I want you to know,

With everything I won't let this go.

These words are my heart and soul.

I'll hold on to this moment, you know,

As I bleed my heart out to show,

And I won't let go. 

this image captures it all.

jealousy problem# 27381... joke #1 lang

solved!

solution: deactivate my social network accounts! :)

winner itong mga ;'to ah

struggle

it's like the more I struggle to attain what I want the more  I dont get it. Why? Because I'm struggling with myself

Serenity

Habang sinusulat ko ito may kaunting patikim ng mainit na luha sa gilid ng mata ko kahapon, Sabado at nuong isang araw, Byernes ay isa sa mga pinakamasayang araw ng buhay ko. Pero isa ring bahagi ng sarili ko ay sisingsis at lungkot na lungkot dahil sa mga pagkakasala ko. Simple lang naman ang ginawa namin nuong araw na iyon: naggrocery kami matapos ay naghapunan sa Max's at nakipag kita sa mga kaibigan ko kaunting shot at hits din. tapos umuwi at natulog na pero syempre ang pinakamasaya para sa akin ay magkakasama kaming lahat buo kami at walang namumuong kahit na anong masama sa pagitan ng kahit na sino sa isa't isa. Sa loob ng ilang buwan ngayon lang ako napanatag ng husto. First time ko talaga maramdaman ang ganito kasi akalain niyo yun sa itinagal tagal ng hirap, takot, galit at pag-aalala ko para sa tao na iyon ngayon masaya at mabuti na siya at mabuti na rin sila ng Nanay ko. Umaasa ako na sa pamamagitan ng blog na ito (kung may makakabasa man) ay mainspire ko yung mga taong nagaalakala na yung pinagdadaaanan nila sa buhay ay hindi na matatapos at madadagdagan lang ay lalong tumibay pa ang loob. Sinagot din ng Diyos ang mga dasal ko at naniniwala ako na kayo rin ay tutugunan niya.

Marami akong natutunan sa humigit kumulang 8 years na uncertainties na pinagdaanan ko iilan duon ay ang pananalig sa Diyos na siya ang tamang daan. Pangalawa ay ang matututong magtiwala at huwag mawala yung pag-asa at tiwala kahit nahihirapan na. Pangatlo ay ibibigay naman ng Diyos ang lahat ng ating kahilingan ngunit sa tamang panahon niya at hindi dahil gusto lang natin. Pangapat ay ang pagtingin sa mga bagay ng hindi puro kapangitan lang ang nakikita sa isang pangit na nangyari sa atin, maari kasi na may sinusubukang sabihin o ituro sa atin kaya hindi agad agad nabibigay ang hiling natin.

not a good feeling to be highly to susceptible to this and very vulnerable to you.

so if you feel me running away from you don't be surprised because you know very much the reason why and though it may have meant something before well it doesn't anymore

Falling Leaves

as I was walking down the courtyard of my school I passed by this huge tree (I forgot what tree it is) I looked up and noticed that its shedding its' leaves. I looked back down and notice that I was walking on a path field with dry leaves. Nostalgia suddenly engulfed me and took me back to the little kid that I was.

Habang naglalakad ako sa may elementary area ng paaralan ko napansin ko yung malaking puno na nakahabalang sa gitna ng palaruan napatingin ako bigla sa taas: nakita ko na naglalagas na yung mga dahon nung malaking malaking puno. Syempre napatingin ako sa lupa at napansin ko na yung nilalakaran ko pala punong puno ng lagas na dahon. Bigla akong naging nostalgic nagbalik yung ala-ala ko nung batang estudyante pa ako sa Paco Catholic School. Napagtanto ko na bata palang pala ako may pagkasentimental na ako sa pagkahulog ng dahon mula sa puno. Para kasi sa akin nung bata ako kapag naglalagas na yung puno hudyat yun na patapos na naman ang isang school year tapos nalulungkot ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nalulungkot ako dahil ba hindi ko na makakasama yung mga kaibigan/kaklase ko? O dahil ba malalayo na naman ako sa masayang kapaligiran/atmospera na meron yung paaralan ko. O dahil ba laging hapon kapag napapansin ko na naglalagas na yung mga dahon? Hanggang ngayon hindi pa din ako tiyak kung bakit pero ang alam ko maski may dulot na kalungkutan yun nuon eh may comfort pa din na binibigay sa akin yung paglaglag ng dahon mula sa puno dahil tapos na din ang paghihirap na dulot ng mga takdang aralin at kung ano ano pang may katuturan sa pag-aaral pero kanina medyo naalarma ako kasi wala na yung pakiramdam ng comfort na meron nuon. Natakot talaga ako kahit ngayon na sinusulat ko 'to kasi nararamdaman ko at parang naipapamukha talaga sa akin na hindi na ako bata. Sa susunod na buwan wala ng bakasyon dahil kailangan ng pumasok sa isang kumpanya upang maging student intern. Sa totoo lang ayoko ang bigat ng responsabilidad na nadudulot ng pagtanda kung puwede nga lang magiging bata nalang ako lagi kasi nuon kapag nagkamali ka yung kahihinatnan (consequences) ng mga pagkakamali mo ay malililiit lamang eh ngayon kapag lumagapak ka walang sasalo sayo kundi ang sarili mo may masasandalan ka man tulad ng kaibigan at kapamilya eh hindi rin naman sila ang taong responsable para sayo dahil ikaw ikaw lang. Yung pagbagsak ng dahon sa lupa hudyat yun ng katapusan ng isang paglalakbay at hudyat din ng pagsisimula ng panibago hindi ko man makita ng malinaw ngayon ang kahihinatnan ko pasasaan pa at mararating ko rin ang patutunguhan ko :)

:)

believe it or not I haven't actually seen Swan Lake yet.. the loser that I am. Anyway in relation to this post I have been intensely inclined to look up the title of this composition that I've heard from the movie Black Swan. I scoured and scoured Google and YouTube for keywords such as swan lake, black swan, and also this has been used in the Victoria Secret runaway last 2007 or 2005 opening. Boy was I glad to have finally find the title :D

my minds playing tricks on me

time and time again I check my phone and it... doesn't flash any incoming text message when I thought it did ring for one I guess I'm just waiting for your brain to get into mine and tell me that you miss me too.