P!nk

been listening to this since 8:30 am haha;)

I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much 

I think this might be it for us (blow me one last kiss) 

You think I'm just too serious, I think you're full of sh-t 

My head is spinning so (blow me one last kiss) 

enjoying simple things in life

I bought a can for myself and finished it before F1 race even began, upon Daddy's arrival he sat beside me and opened the can "Yuyen ubos na?, Bakit ubos na?" sabi ko sige wait a while I'll get you another one downstairs, haha tapos naubos niya yung kanya while watching Olympics!

the perfect background music for lying in bed all day for this perfect weather.

keeping it all to myself is fun so much fun! like holding an atomic bomb in your hand kind of fun!

I know you don't need a reason why you love someone because you  just do but one thing that I really like & love about my bestfriends is that they are not selfish. Gahd I wouldn't know what to do without them! I love that their not selfish with their time and whatever they have they share to me. Now who wouldn't want that right??

contained within

presented here is almost everything I'm feeling, thinking of, trying to be, want, going through... inside.

disclaimer: i do not own anything posted here, just got it all from Tumblr and Youtube

I really wanna love somebody

I really wanna dance the night away

I know we're only half way there

But you can take me all the way

THE NOT SO COMPALINTSY STUFF AT NIGHT

things I love:

• pies, tarts & doughnuts, chocolates and lime sodas

• seeing good deeds being done; as simple as throwing trash in proper bins

• hugs. bear hugs.

• hanging out with my two best bitches, which seems to be happening a lot lately.

• running

• reciprocation & appreciation of my actions

• achieving my goals

• writing down my feelings

• listening to whatever happened by the strokes

• singing

• going places

• learning new insights because it feeds my soul :D

I CAN NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND INFIDELITY TENDENCIES. IF SOMETHING IS LACKING IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP THEN TRY TO SORT IT OUT WITH THE PERSON YOU COMMITTED YOURSELF TO BE TOGETHER WITH BEFORE SEARCHING  IT OUT IN SOMEONE ELSE. IT'S JUST PLAIN DISGUSTING.

It’s better to have nobody, than to have someone who is half there, or doesn’t want to be there. -Angelina Jolie

now suck that vampire wannabe.

complaints in the morning lLOL

things i dont like

buko juice/shake.
--   I dont know why but it's just that never appealing to me at all.

falling in line and waiting for long periods.

sweating when I'm not in my working out clothes.
-- ambaho ko.

being teased to someone I disdain. 
--  I dont like it at all. It disgusts me in some levels because its like a reflection of how much you really know me. *shudder*

having no one to trust...


hearing your words repeated by someone else. 
--   There's the ever present danger of being taken out of context and credibility issues.


being talked about behind my back 
--    but then again who wants that right?

people who speaks all high and mighty when theyre very ignorant about the real deal
-- ugh plain disgusting!


having to psyched myself into doing something only to have it changed the last minute.
-- ugh highly annoying! I hate it the most


more later...

among the many happy things that happened to me tonight this made me the happiest:

"hi mau. Thank you ulit sa pagasikaso sa grad form"

Natanggap ko itong mensahe galing sa kaklase ko, siya lang ang katanging tanging tao na nakapansin at nagpasalamat sa mga hakbang na ginawa ko para sa nalalapit na graduation para sa klase namin. Hindi ako nanlilimos ng pasasalamat kahit pa sa aking pananaw ay nararapat ito sa akin. Kung kaya't nagulat ako na nakatanggap ako nito, nakakatuwa lang yung tipo ng tuwa na galing sa kaibuturan ng puso ko. Nakakataba ng puso na mapasalamat dahil sa trabaho na ginawa ko din naman ng taos puso.

This is message came at the right time: when I needed an uplift the most. Many people take me for granted, take my presence, my opinions, my advice for granted  failing to see that I do/say it out of love, concern and welfare of all. It's very nice. :D

“I wasn’t lonely.I experienced no self-pity.I was just caught up in a life in which I could find no meaning.”

— Charles Bukowski

let it go she said; I did and felt lighter... I was empty.

conversations

me watching Formula 1



Me: Ma, ayon oh! si Alonso! yung baby ko! gagawin ko talaga lahat mapabilang lang diyan. Kahit ano basta maging pit crew lang ako, kaso hindi ako engineer pero kahit taga punas lang ng sahig sahig nila ok na ako. 


Mom: hahahah pangarap mo nalang yun. *then she laughs loud and long*

Gahd. I love my Mom. ;)

Batman

It's very very disturbing on my part to hear violence yet do nothing about it. :/ It's pretty fcuking sick to hear a little girl cry out a request for his dad to stop hurting his mom. Its very absurd to hear her beg and do nothing. Its fcuking sick to imagine how he threatens to grab his gun and shoot her. It's fcuking fcvked up to hear him threat his wife while his daughterS are around them. I dont want it to haunt me to sleep. It's absurd.
I wished to be Batman at that moment, that way I could save her from those horrible horrible ordeals. :/

Speaking of Batman, I think I'd probably be taking myself alone in the theaters since everyone I asked to come watch with me practically turned me down if not gave me false hopes. pish.

Passing the day by...

So I was practically bed-ridden the whole day except when I decided to shake off my smelly scent and take a total bath and grab coffee at the nearby convenience store. My room is an arctic pit namputs, with my two huge windows wide open, even my fats cannot warm me up enough.  I basically wasted my Sunday doing nothing but reading something completely not thesis related so yeah screw me and I had to reformat my laptop *sigh*.  I was also able to watch Fernando Alonso take again another Poduim finish so yey for that! very very proud! He is now leading the scoreboard with twenty something something points ahead of Webber. Today I heard him speak italian with his race engineer, damn I wanna kiss him that moment! I wanna marry the guy! Oh dear Lord intervine! make our paths meet I beg you!



Yesterday, Saturday was a better day, I was able to FINALLY  fold all the clothes in my room and in my hamper, which have been begging for me to finally notice them. I also managed to clean up my room a bit. Watched ang Babae sa Septik Tank finally after a year. smoke half a pack. laundry my clothes. reflect. and yeah discovered this video which is now my currently favorite song.

and this video as well which is my now current favorite music video:

Alicia Silverstone is freakin HOT! plus this video presents a good story especially the ending. hmm...

thank you rain for making me happy.

How do you pick up the threads of an old

life? How do you go on, when in your heart

you begin to understand. There is no going

back. There are some things that time

cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep.

That have taken hold.

                                                           --Frodo Baggins




have seen the movie I took this quote from a gazillion times already but it is only now that I've taken notice of this line. It's deep. wonderf. reflective.

HAHAHAHA I died laughing

ECCEDENTESIAST.

the type of people I warned myself to stay away from:

• the TS -- people who only takes me on for a ride but never actually stays true to their word. Plans that never materializes. heartbreakers.

• the Surfers-- people who rides in with you through high times and leaves you alone during mayhem and emo days.

• the UserFriendlies -- people who knows you ONLY when they need you.

• the DEAF -- the type of friend who chooses to stay away from you because you tried to give them your piece of mind.

hahahaha to this

and another...

round of the game we call: It Sucks!

it sucks when you're living your guilt, when you cannot do anything anymore because it has been over with and you catered to that damage (though unintentionally). It sucks when you try to ward it away but it keeps coming back at you and you don't know what to do.

 

we all have that something we regret be it a decision we based solely on our current emotion/s. Most of the time those are the actions that doesn't quite bring us to where we wanted to be or where things ought to be for us. But sometimes there is nothing that we can't do with these emotions but to keep it to ourselves, we however know the consequences of keeping this emotions within: the possibility of an outburst looming in the corner. Among the many kinds of "burst" an outburst is something that should be avoided, must be avoided for it doesn't bring any immediate good or sometimes it doesn't bring us any good at all. 


What I'm really trying to say here is do not let things get up to the point where you let your emotions get the best of you. Do not let circumstances heightened up to the point where even you cannot control yourself because you let this/these emotion eat you up. Do not let it get to the point where your decisions would be clouded. Do not let it get to the point where you could barely recognize the words that comes out of your mouth. Kahit napakahirap make it a point to voice it out and let yourself be heard because it'll kill you or both parties in the end. trampling a relationship instead of saving it. 

IT SUCKS

when you thought you knew someone quite well yet they have the capacity to shock you with their actions.

when your actions are misinterpreted for something else completely out of the context.

when you tried your best to prevent something yet your efforts doesn't prevail.

when you let circumstances get the better of you



more later

But all this time

I've been chasin' down a lie

And I know it for what it is

But it beats the alternatives

So I'll take the lie

50 Shades of Grey Casts

my casts:

Christian Grey

1st option: him! the sexy hair described in the book is very much his patented look. so sexy!

Option two: Jonathan Rhyse Meyer. He naturally projects this aura of authority which is very Christian Grey-ish to me (though he's a bit old soo...)

Anastasia

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1st Option:  oh so gorgeous Blake Lively would fit in the role perfectly--I think. If only she'd allow to dye her hair brown like in this photo.

2nd Option: that mischievous grin is very alluring! Leighton Meester as Anastasia, I think she could do well.

I am seriously ramming my brain out on who could play Taylor. I must say I like his character very much!

Kate Kavanagh

Option 1: Candice Accola very commanding aura right?

Jose Rodriguez Jr.

Option 1: Wilmer Valderrama: because I cant think of anyone else plus he's kinda HOT!

Ethan Kavanagh

Option 1: Alex Pettyfer because he's hot! thats why

GREY FEVER

Christian Grey vs Rich of Skins season 6

K, my bestfriend, and I were txting...

K: ang gwapo ni Rich i-crush him!
Me: ina pag scene talaga ni Rich naiiyak ako eh putangina.
K: oo ang lungkot lang.... Pero ang gwapo talaga niyan :(((
Me: mas gugustuhin ko pa nga ng Rich sa buhay ko kesa Christian Grey
K: ay... teka mahirap yan I need time to think

Me: eh hindi ko kailangan ng yaman
Me: (somehow retracting) I mean hindi sobra (sobrang yaman). hindi pala ako ipokrita
K: Shet pero kailangan natin ng pleasure na maibibigay ng isang c grey 


*hahaha at napaisip na nga ako kung sino sa kanila ang mas gusto ko

juice ko last Monday I would have given my everything to skip to Saturday I mean come on!1 UFC 148 Silva vs Sonnen. gaaaahd SILVA!!!!!!!!!! AND Griffin vs Ortiz. Then there's F1 British Gran Prix with my team eyeing its 3rd time on the podium. But now... NOW honestly I pray for strength to get through Saturday because you know whats up?? Thesis defense that is!! gaaahd. kill me  

lovely

CHEST PAIN

even now that I am eating nothing, doing nothing its hurting. WHAT IS WRONG?

something distracted me as I was munching through my fave PikNik Honey Mustard and drinking my favorite Arizona tea and reading. My chest pains!! they're back, like I cant breath and something heavy lies atop me. I am not so scared, only a bit confused because the last time I submitted to the agony of these chess pains was when I was actively smoking my week off & right now honestly I haven't even come near one. ugh oh so confusing and this uneasy feeling is getting through me. I hate it.

very much