sorry

you can't just continue saying your sorry only because you are minsan may mga bagay na kailangan kang baguhin sa sarili mo o sa pamamaraan mo para hindi ka na paulit ulit magsosorry eh kasi nababalewala ang meaning ng word na sorry. kasi paano mo mapapatunayang pinagsisisihan mo nga kung ginagawa mo naman ulit. hindi naman bato ang tao may hangganan din kaya sige ka ikaw din kapag paulit ulit kang makasakit mamaya mawala na sayo yung tao na yun ng hindi ka pa handang pakawalan siya.

by know I hope you noticed the changes by now I hope you know that I hate you.

grudge no 1

when everyone wasn't there (for you) I was. When people started pouring in I was still there .... and you left me there

song of the day

suddenly as we were doing our parade I started singing this to a friend hahaha random

regret

sometimes we get fvcking too ingrained with ourselves that we cannot fvcking help but fvcking react in such a way that'll make us punch ourselves in the face after committing the crime :/

haaay

it pains me to put this in here but for the record, yes I still feel uneasy whenever you display your affection. :/ and you cannot fault me for this. no you cant.

this is all that we can do after all: to dream and watch it unfold in front of us.

blabber

things i hate # 80001

People who are malicious.

Seduce my mind and you can have my body, find my soul and I’m yours forever.

iba talaga yung pakiramdam na nadarama ko kapag nakikita ko ang paglipad ng eroplano ang astig lang eh kasi para sa akin napakagaling na feat ng engineering nun saka ewan may emotional attachment din ata na ka-akibat. excitement. simula ng kung ano at syempre ang paglalakbay.

MASARAP DIN PALA MAGPAKASUPERHERO

sa una nandun yung thrill na sikat ako dahil may nagagawa ka para sa taong niligtas mo pero kalaunan pala malungkot na kasi malungkot magisa, hindi ka pwedeng mandamay ng iba at lalong hindi ka nila maiintindihan dahil prioridad nila kailangan mo unahin. hahaha hindi pala masarap magpaka super hero :( no not at all

and I have to stop being grumpy

I have to stop at some point and pick it up somewhere

the only person who can make me cry like this is getting married tomorrow.

you can go through all the what-if's.

you can try to fix yourself quickly.

you can try to be okay..in your mind, and in everyone else's eyes.

but until your heart is done being broken.

until it has healed..

you won't be able to wake up and be okay.

you'll continue to dream with that broken heart.

but there's hope.

that the day when your heart's healed...

you can smile once again.

xXskullsfreakXx 

and so I wonder with all my mind why the change but I dare not ask

the thing is I'm about to lose my best friend I'm giving her up to someone else :/

nahihirapan na ako hindi ko pa din kasi alam saan na tutungo saka ano na ang gagawin ko saan ko kayang dalhin 'to saka hanggang saan ba ang limitasyon na ibibigay ko sa sarili ko. paano ko irere-invent ang sarili ko para naman hindi na ako nakakasakit ng iba. nakakainis lang kasi nakaka strike 4 na ako so medj off na talaga yun db? I have to stop and start off at some point. ngunit paano?

peril

In the light of the latest feelings uncovered I am in danger of losing my mind and myself. When you enter a combat with yourself and your torn between what you must be and  what you are is tearing others apart where then do you go? How do you adjust and how long should things be in safe mode so to say? When you will do anything for that person because you love them like a part of you, would you risk losing yourself altogether just to never at least at your own best will try to hurt that person again? 

stucked

the clarity of the purpose is not within visibility and the ashes feels like a haven from the flames that tears the heart apart. No. running away is the best solution there is to this. And not a soul not even the one under the bed can understand my misery. people can tell all sort of things relevant and all graces that should be sought but deep down in the deepest well of my mind lies the craziness that not even I, myself can understand. wherein no amount of laughter can subdue the fact that there you lye in the pit of the unknown misery waiting to be saved and brought back to  life while outwardly the projection of happiness is endlessly faked. and no you don't want to be saved at all.