chaos havoc causing moment

i am not at peace

something have gone amiss 

the cannons shot back and fort 

as the explosion occurs and I scramble

to gather my wits and retell the tail of dissolution

and pegged myself without satisfaction

desperately hanging on to the valley of hope

while being pulled into the sunset of woe

and so i am trying to recall what I'm trying to remember

while trying to forget what i should recall

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ACCEPTANCE

WAKING UP THE DAY AFTER IS THE HARDEST THING; ITS THE DAY YOU ACCEPT THINGS TO BE AS THEY ARE AT THAT PRESENT MOMENT. YOU WAKE UP AND YOU REALIZE you have to go down the whole day to live up with the misery and hopefully be cured the next day. you wake up and make yourself used to how things are now that you've lost a vital tool for your system. see a fone is not just a fone its a way to connect with friends its something you aspire to have its something you organize and get organize with your accompaniment when everybody's asleep and all the emo things that I do with my fone. not to mention your parents' disappointment and how they would fuckin remind you of this event for the fvckin rest of your life. How it would be hard getting it the next time around and how it would be fucking difficult to cope up with that. The good thing about this is that it happens to others a lot not just you (which is logically not a good thing)but hey it helps you cope up better it helps you feel less sorry for yourself and most of all it helps you thinks that its just another fone.













but No its not just another fone.




PUTANGINA PA DIN!

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There are billions of matter in my life that I do not have control on. I however do the best I can to keep things in my life under my control; I even use my manipulative emotional powers to will people to do what I want. Now it may sound like a nail grinding against the blackboard and I may be branded as a shellfish, be that as it may but I really do think that I am doing it for the better of the person I am trying to control. On the shallower side however I swear I am doing the best I can not to manipulate people to do things for me because I am too lazy to do it for myself but sometimes I really can't help it. Back unto the heavier note I do it to them because sometimes they are too silly to not notice what's infront of them, they are those who are very much guided by their emotions that they find distorted ways to grace out of the prob/situation and soon enough their reasons fail them.


Which brings us to the issue of  using another guy to get over another. That confusing approach that many girls have resorted to makes me sometimes think: Is it trully right? Is it morally just? how am I to pick what's wrong and right when I've seen both ways succeed and fail? And those I've asked seems to really agree and favor it. But still the question bugs me Is it morally right? And if its wrong in the first place won't it be wrong all the way? Won't it turn out terrible? And if it turns out good for how long will it stay that way?


There's this lesson we had on Philo about Fallacy Argumentum ad populum or simply known as bandwagon fallacy


What is the connection on the latter isue to the first one u might ask?


See I am under this dilemma with this friend. She just broke up with his loser bf and is now using this guy to strip away the pain. I am more than happy to see my sister not waiting over the phone or in YM but I do not wanna see her flirting around with some guy who has a gf. MY GAHD this thing I do not have control over I think. BLAH!

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I keep running and running from things running and hiding from everything and everyone. Isolating myself until it finally dawned on me that what I have is not solitude but loneliness. Because I can be surrounded by a sea of people and still feel all alone. And then I ask myself who am I? 

Josh Hutcherson

So yeah decided to blog about him since I heb nothing to do and I found out that he'll be playing the role of Peeta Mellark in the movie Hunger Games yehey!!! I used to like this kiddo as he played Gab in the movie Little Manhattan :) now the kid is all grown up and handsome :)

SCHOOL TOMORROW

I feel like I haven't really done any justice to my summer when i tried to recount what i have done all I can remember is the Bora part of it and the lying down in my bed part of it :((

I really am disappointed with myself but at least I was able to finish my goals which really are to clean my room and uhhhm I do not really have goals so you see those are what gave my summer away haaaay

I feel old like I have only few vacations I only have a few amount of time to spend lazing off when the real stress of real life begins as of now I only have to focus on school and other drama related school incident ugh!

dont wanna come to class tomorrow :(

the girl who has No friends :(

Judging from your poor judgment which led to your stupid action; you honestly thought that I care enough to think of schemes to annoy you but I'm sorry. See that's where things started to go wrong for you when u made your assumption you freak. I FEEL FREAKIN' SORRY FOR YOU there I said it.  I DO NOT CARE ABOUT YOU AT ALL! You obviously don't know me you freak. 

No matter how many times I watch this commercial I never do get tired of it :) It was way old bata pa si Karen dito chubby face pa and all :))

martyrdom and loyalty

Day by day

I watch myself drowse alone in the night

But I stay half awake and guarding by the moonlight

Night after night I watch her cry herself to sleep after a fight

In the morning I see no trace of her midnight plight

I can see she does well putting it all in hindsight

Despite inflicted sufferings she's really tough 

Chances of me climbing up the tower is rough

Oh how I wish my love is enough

For the girl I care so much about since I was a child

But she carries the name of someone else

And the baby's presence is already felt

And though I am already tied to another

My love for her would never surrender

For this may be called a forbidden love

For this may be called a hopeless love

For thy love remain to be unreturned 

I will never surrender
For I am only a man who have loved

an Angel who fell from above

I OWN EVERYTHING ON THIS POST EXCEPT THE PHOTO THANKYOU VERY MUCH :D

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I am much too confuded with romance that I've absorbed from the series that I've been reading that I can hardly bring myself to sleep. I am much too in love with the chrac of the earl from the book  that I could hardly help bt hope he's tangible. Sad goodnight -mau 2:30 am




The real reason why I am troubled? Is Because I am in Love with this guy 

If I were to make a cast out of the Wallflower series of Lisa Kleypas I would definitely cast this guy out as the Earl of Westcliff aaah LOVELY!

as my good friend Alliah once said "so there's where all the great guys like him (the character) have gone to... in the book" SO.DAMN.TRUE.

nuff said ;)

Alone in my imperfect little silent world

So yeah my ate's line for me since before the school year ended was "alm mo minsan ikakandado kita diyan sa kwarto mo" they get mad for my too much staying at my room. I honestly don't know where all these begun but I like being alone. there is this certain fun I feel in not heAring blubber from other people and hearing my thoughts more clearly but it has this certain feel of isolation and loneliness that I sort of enjoy I don't know if it is just for the summer or for the better. I don't its just that I like it but it makes me sad in a way and I don't care.

Home made chicharon :)

My sister and I went to the butchers shop to buy ingredients for the lumpia that were gonna cook for my mommas bday we had the meat grounded and he trimmd away the skin trimmings. So my ate askd my dad to the skin on the sun out to dry and after a couple of days it's all driep up and he then fried it surprisingly it turnd out to be like the chicharon that can be bought on the sidewalk and were to proud of ourselves ONLY ONE DOWNFALL THOUGH! WE FORGOT TO PUT SALT BEFORE DRYING IT OUT hence the chicharon is tasteless :)) bwahaha it was a fun first time though :)

Emotional instability

My emotional instability is not my fault it is natures'. With all honestly I don't know where I am getting my mood swings from. I feel ok but whenever I dig dipper there is still unsatisfaction and I question myself why why why
Are there others who feels just like I do or do they have other troubles dissimilar to mine?

Leo and Blake?!!!!! WTF

After dating her co-star Penn Badgely on the series Gossip Girl rumor has it that Blake Lively is now dating Leo DiCaprio waaaah what a match up!? I do want to agree with their relationship mainly because Leo will definitely just tire of her after a few months just like Bar Rafaeli and all the gorgeous ladies he dumped ugh! 


here is a picture of them riding a water taxi together  in Italy:

ED WESTWICK IN MANILA

Unang tanong: BAKIT AKO WALANG GREAT CONNECTION (people) WHO COULD EVENTUALLY LET ME IN ON EVENTS SUCH AS THESE??

Well so this is all about him coming here and I not being able to meet him
this is his arrival pic in MIA

so damn hot here are some of my fave photos of him